Saturday, June 13, 2009

Our Angels 2nd Heavenly Birthday

Baskets that I painted for them.

Ryden getting ready to send his brothers and sister balloons.

Ryden visiting them at the cemetery.

Sending them love up in heaven and leaving them something beautiful on earth.

Our Earthly Angel, Ryden James

Ryden James was Born July29, 2008 at 2:03 am
7lbs 7oz
19.5 inches

We try to get him involved in anyway we can with remembering his sister and brothers.

This is Ryden's bedroom wall. With his sister and brothers names in the stars.

Our Guardian Angels, Cheyenne Grace, Riley Joseph and Aiden Samuel

My name is Tracy and I am married to my husband Jeff, we have been married for alittle over 6 years now. I am 30 years old and have 3 beautiful angels watching over me. My husband and I were trying to have a baby for four years. In the beginning it was if it happens it happens but after four years of not happening we decided to go through fertility. We went through one treatment and we got pregnant. We found out that it was triplets and of course first reaction was OMG!!!
We finally started to get use to the idea of 3 babies. We had started getting our babies rooms together. We got cribs and clothes. We decided to put the babies all in one room until they grew out of their cribs. Using the other room for their clothes and toys.
We found out at 17 weeks that we were having 2 boys and a girl. I had already had a girls name picked out and one boys name picked out. I was in between on the second boys name. We wanted to use my dads name and my husbands dads name so the first name had to fit perfect with the dads names as their middle. We decided on Cheyenne Grace for our girl, Riley Joseph and Aiden Samuel. Joseph is my dads name and Samuel being my husband's dads name.
The morning that I felt contractions was the day that my life stopped. I was getting up to go to work and I wasn't feeling good. I was on my way out the door and I told my husband to stay by the phone cause I thought I was having contractions. I got to work and immediately started to call my boss to send someone to come in and take over my shift. I am a manager and have to open the store. No one seemed to be answering their phones and why would they, who wants to come to work on a Saturday. I eventually got someone to come in about an hour later. My husband and Mother were already at the store ready to take me to the hospital.
We got to the hospital. They took me in right away thanks to my husband calling ahead. They quickly did and Ultrasound and saw that my baby girl was coming through my cervix. I was 21w 2d along so this was not good. The doctor said we are going to place you on bed rest here in the hospital and lay your head lower than your feet to see if the baby will retract inside. I laid for alittle over a day and nothing happened. So the doctor said we will have you deliver your baby girl and then try to stitch your cervix up to try and keep the other 2 babies in.
I delivered my little girl Cheyenne and as soon as she came out the next baby was right in the position that Cheyenne was in so the doctors could not do anything. I would go on to deliver Riley and Aiden about 5 hours later. They were born on June 10,2007 and went to heaven that same day.
Doctors never really told me a reason why this happened. I am hoping to get some answers on my 6 week check-up. I am taking everyday step by step and reading articles and connecting with alot of good people that have gone through similar things. They have helped me alot on my sleepless nights.
My heart hurts everyday and not a moment that goes by do I not think about my babies. You will always be loved and missed.

Love your...MOMMY